June 2004 Archives

Ok, so I've been slacking. What can I say, other than: I'm a big slacker. I'm not a total slacker though. I revamped the way the picture pages work for V5.2, and I even put in a nifty little random picture thing on the side bar. Next time I make a layout I'm going to have to keep the thumbnail widths in mind.

It's definatly been an eventful last few days. I wish I could summarize or go into it, but I can't right now. I've been keeping myself busy with this picture page over the last two days. It's been a good way to keep my mind off of things.

That's all for now. You got pictures, so you're not allowed to complain.

Mission: Failed or Aborted

Alright. I got nothing right now. I guess I'm not as successful as I thought I was. I blame Charly. My plan now is to just drink it away tonight. Generally it would have just been turned off, but tonight I don't think I'll be turning anything off.

It's strange. Earlier today I was fine. Happy; bouncy; whatever. I was so ready for tonight. I was like: Yesh we're going to party. Now I'm not looking forward to it as much. I think it's because we're hanging out at my house. I hate my house. I'm still not able to explain it. I just don't like my house (like I just don't like Incubus or Coldplay). I'm definatly hoping things will get better if I move into the basement. Bleh. I'll be better in a bit. I think the fact that my pita dripped all over me ruined my mood too.

I've noticed tons of people are obsessed with the soccer thing. Yech. Soccer is gross. I hate it with a passion. The Portugese made us late for our prom. Thanks a lot. You've got nothing to be proud of anyways. Like a few other European countries. I can at least accept that Lebanon and Ukraine have done nothing.

So I didn't get to finish my description of Day 2. I guess all that I have to mention still was that ~Natasha gave me an amazing certificate gift that I love. Well that, and the fact that I'll have pictures up as soon as I can get my camera from Barone.

Yesterday was massive rushing to get to ~Torie's for the prom. I found out that I didn't have to be there until 6:00 for the limo which left at 6:30. Loverly. So I was an hour early. Whatever. I made a stop at the LCBO and picked up a small bottle of raspberry twist before heading over. Then we waited for people to arrive. There was 10 of us in the limo total. Colleen and Graeme, Jess and Mike, Chilbert and Connie, ~Alyssa, ~Torie, Veronica and I. The ride there was fun. It was a little awkward at some points, even for me. I think it was just because I was tired; although no where near as tired as ~Alyssa, ~Torie, or Veronica. Eventually we got over it and things were good.

The formal itself was in Liberty Grand. So there are certain things that it's not fair to compare between the IR formal, and the HT formal. For example, the building was much nicer. The food was also nicer. Those things aren't fair to compare though. Obviously the food is going to be better, just because it's Liberty Grand and not Liuna Station. That's ok though.

The dinner actually took longer to serve compared to the HT formal. They also had this soft quiet music playing in an attempt to calm down the nuts that go to that school. It was good though; I didn't think that much chicken could be boneless. The dessert wasn't as good though.

After dinner they took a really long time to start the dance. So there was this period where no one really knew what to do, and just wandered around the building. Jess Aumais was there, so I spent a bunch of time with her throughout the night. Dacing tended to be awkward sinc I didn't really know anyone, and at various points in time the three I did know were sitting because they were tired. At the beginning the DJ really sucked too. He would keep mixing songs and never let a full one play. He got better by the end of the night though. He started playing good songs too. I requested Billy Idol in honour of ~Natasha. Then I sang and danced. Then he played Rasputin, and I nearly died. I went all out doing the Ukrainian dancing. By the 4th round of it, I was dead and my legs couldn't support me. It sucked and my thighs still hurt. But I loved it. We started the circle, and eventually the asians went in an breakdanced. After that I was pretty much done for the night.

Funny thing about the limo ride home, I don't remember most of it. Except for random flashes of everyone camera that burned my retinas. The after party was fun too. We went to Laura's house. I didn't really know anyone there either. That changed quickly enough. It's easy to get to know people when they're drunk, I'm drinking, and there are cookies. So I got to know people well enough. Most of them were already drunk. We ended up walking one guy home around 3:00 or something, and then went over to Tim Horton's for coffee. Random political conversations at 4:30 in the morning can be lots of fun.

After that it was a return to Laura's house, and a battle against the need to sleep. Graeme and I were the only ones who didn't sleep, and I was definatly extremely close. There were points where I knew I was dozing off and had to fight falling asleep. So we ended up singing songs from Disney, and the Simpsons. By 10:00 we were done, and out to McDonald's for breakfast. And that's the way the cookie crumbles (or at least IR's prom and after party).

So after that instead of getting serious sleep, I drove ~Heather out to BlockBuster and McDonalds. That was a huge pain in the ass. Not because of the going out with her, but because my legs were not supporting my weight and I was ready to pass out. So ~Josh was working, and I made an attempt to start a conversation - that ended up with me ready to sleep on the table. What can I say, I'm a horrible conversationalist when I'm tired.

Then I went out wiht ~Natasha. Oakville Place to see Barone and get my camera. Then to HMV to look for CDs, and buy DVDs. After that we went to WalMart, and then Krsipy Kreme. Halfway to Krispy Kreme I got a call from ~Heather saying her sister was abandoned in the Heights for a charity car wash and needed a ride to work. So we had to go and get her, and drive her back. And there you have the first half of Day 3.

Speaking of Day 3, I managed to achieve my goal. I guess I'm happy with myself. Not really, but as people said: it needed to be done. So whatever. It's not exactly what people would have liked, but I think it's good enough. It's not like I'd blow it off if it came up, but I'm not going to be like: Come on, come on, come on! Friggen magnets.

So here's Day 2. I'm sure ~Natasha could tell you that Day 1 didn't exactly work like it should have. Prom was last night. I don't know what to say about it. I definatly had fun. At our table it was ~Natasha, Alex, ~Mel, Joshu-wa, Mamoon, ~Jess, Barone, ~Heather and I. It was fun. For the center piece they had pictures of us, and the school. I'm really glad I put in pictures from my site - that's where they got most of them. As well as from the STA group page. It was really nice though. They even gave us nice photo albums to go with it.

They played a bunch of games too. There was one game where we had to find as many items as possible on a list that was taped to the table (picture of mom or dad, calculator, dental floss, lip gloss, lighter, $50 bill, coin from 1986, a disposable camera, breathmints, sewing kit, and a mens leather shoe or a pink tie). We got 7. There was no sewing kit, coin from 1986, dental floss, or lighter. Although we could have got the lighter. So after that the tables with 5 or more items had to dance. So ~Mel and Joshu-wa went out and did the chicken dance for us. We won, and everyone at the table got a picture frame as well as a HMV gift certificate.

The dinner was good. Well sorta. The salad had a really strange dressing on it. The penne was amazing, so I ate tons of it. The chicken was ok. For dessert I got a fruit bowl because I have nut allergies. Mmm fruit. I love fruit so much. I miss eating fruit, I used to eat it all the time. Like I would cut a watermelon in half, and eat one half with a spoon. Then I'd eat the other half. But I digress. The dance was good too. Except at the beginning he was mixing a lot so it was awkward, and the lights threatened to give seizures. It was fun though. How can you say no to Michael Jackson, Billy Idol, and Boney M?

I skipped out on the after party. Well not really. We went back to Sheridan. While we were driving there ~Josh called and said he was there with Jon and Eric. I told him to come so we could try and get him in since ~Heather said she wasn't going to stay. So I went there and hung out in the lobby before getting a cab and going to ~Alyssa's. She was so confused, but it was good. I didn't even spend much time there. By the time I went home to get a swim suit, and then got back it was late and I was falling asleep standing up. So I went home, felt sick, and went to bed.

So now it's Day 2. The funny thing about Day 2 is that I think I've achieved what I was supposed to by a targetted Day 3 or Day 5. It will probably take until Day 3 to make it official though. The one thing I've noticed when I talk to people is that I can tell when they're lying. Either to everyone, or to themselves. Maybe they're just pushing stuff aside so they don't have to deal with it. I know I'm good at that. I was talking to people. It's like, they say one thing but they really mean something else. Or it's not what they'd really like to be saying.

I'd really like to continue this. But I have to get to ~Torie's for her prom. Ah god damn me for cutting it so close all the time.

Grad was last night. Today is the first day where I'm officially graduated. What can I say, I don't feel that much different. The ceremony was nice. It was in the gym, which was ok. They decorated it up nicely. Pomp and Circumstance was playing. I felt out of place. I went on though. Bart's prayer was really funny, just in how it was delivered. I liked the Principal's Address, although I felt bad for the people from STA because not one member of Administration is from STA, so the grade 9 and 10 stuff was about Loyola because that's what they knew. The Valedictorian's Speech was nice. It had every cliche except for "We were all best friends," but it was nice. I think the "we put a heart into the building" was over done, because he used it at the blessing - but it was good. I won an award. Woo-hoo, or whatever.

So today is officially day one. I guess things are going to need to change now. Suddenly I'm not just some high school student. I'm not sheltered. I need to go out and deal with things. I figured I'd start dealing with things that are around here, that I've been pushing aside. It's not exactly fair. I definatly don't want to. I wish I could be fine the way things were. I'm not though, which is why I guess it's the right thing to do. I guess we'll only see how it goes.

~Natasha told me to send in a resume and I might be able to get a job for July. I think it'd be nice. I'm just afraid. I'm really not sure I'm ready for a job. A real job. Booster Juice wasn't a real job; it was a joke. This is a real job. I'm not even sure I'm emotionally stable enough to handle a job. We'll see.

~Heather's off getting ready for formal tonight. Highlights, and cut, and straightened, and so many other things I didn't understand. I had no idea it was so complicated to get dressed as a girl. I was like: We'll I'm wearing a suit, and a shirt with a tie, and shoes. She had to find the right dress, from like 3 people. She had to get earings, and a necklace; purse and shoes. Hair had to be done, and the nails after that. There's some order to it all too, I just haven't figured it out yet.

So prom should be fun right? I mean it's prom. Prom is supposed to be the highlight of this whole big graduation thing. Why do I not feel excited. I'm almost worried. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't think I'm going to have a good time. I had a room at Sheridan. I don't think Heather's going to sleep over though; she probably won't be allowed. So that means I get to be a loser and have a room to myself. I don't want to be that loser. I'm not even sure I wan't to drink right now. It sucks.

I was reading a cheesy love story. I thought I'd share an excerpt, because I think it takes the cake out of everything I've ever read.

Eventually I realised it was because he was all I needed in more ways than one. That he was the perfect package. A complete. I knew I wanted him for everything.

I think the problem is that my life requires much needed change. I've always hated my house; I find it boring, and see most time spent here as a waste. I'm really hoping for this basement room thing to work out. I'm hoping to make it flow better than this room. I'm definatly not going to have stupid walls everywhere. I'll probably try and take a room in the corner. Or I'll make my room a big box. I like boxes. Boxes allow you to maximize space. Unlike strange L shaped rooms, with windows, and small walls, and door. I hate my room.

My room is also right next to the loft on one side, and my brother's room on the other. Which causes problems. Today I was waken up by my brother and his friends being loud in the loft. Granted, they have every right to be loud in the loft and there's nothing I can do about it. It's the loft, it's so far away from the rest of the house no one would complain. So I just look anal. Which I probably end. Then I get my brother in his room. He leaves his music on really loud and wanders around the house; that annoys me. So I have to get all angry, listening to his music. Which I wouldn't even call music, because screaming does not count as music. I don't care what you say. I've being doing music in one form or another since I was 4. I know what music is. That is not music. So stuff it.

I think a room in the basement will be good for me. It will keep me away from people when I'm moody. It will let me have people down there for as long as I want without waking people up. I wont have to deal with the stentch if someone hot boxes the loft. And my room will be bigger. Mmm bigger room. Which means bigger bed. Mmm. I wish I could do something cool and furnish my room entierly in Ikea stuff. I know that won't happen though. The online site is pretty ugly. Merchandise wise that is. I did find this bed and this sofa that I like, and already match my desk, bookcase, and filing thingey. I think I need to reinstal the Sims. Not now though. Now I need to go get ready for grad.

Grads today. It's funny how I feel. I don't fit in at Trinity at all. Even walking in to get the robe I thought to myself: Wow I really don't belong here. It was an interesting feeling. I knew I didn't belong at Trinity the whole time I was there. Some people said it was because I was 'too mature' for the kids at Trinity. I mean, I know there were tons of grade 9s, and the grade 10s acted like grade 9s, and I hated most of the grade 11s - but I don't think that was it. I hardly consider myself a mature person. I may have mature views on things, but I'm probably one of the least mature people I know. Trinity didn't work.

So where do I go from there? I don't feel ready for University. I don't think I'm prepared for it mentally, or emotionally. I also feel stupid for saying it, but all of a sudden I don't want to leave people. Friends I've made. People I've grown close to. Even the new friends I've just made recently. It sucks to know that I'm going to end up moving away; they're likely to forget about me. I guess life just sucks like that.

I don't even think I can continue right now. Actually I can't. I'm just not feeling it right now. My groove has been off for a while now (which is shown in the horrible, half finished entries).

I'm sorry. For everything.

I can't even get into how stupid people are. Or how amusing life can be. There was the random yelling 40 year old who couldn't drive, that tried to pick a fight with me at the LCBO. Krys went nuts. It was the funniest thing ever.

It's amazing how much I can bitch and complain about how things suck, even though my life is great. Earlier today someone said: Why do you have such a cool life? I didn't realize my life was that cool. I mean, I know I go around telling people that I'm part of the Ultamite Cool, and Natasha is my friend and she's the Original Cool. Honestly though, I don't think my life is that cool. I know I have fun. My life is hardly perfect though.

Like everyone else, there are time when I feel down. Generally they come at night, or when I'm bored by myself. I think I'm just lucky in a sense that I can get over it really quickly when I go out with people. For example: Recently I feel crappy, so I go out with people and I feel better.

That's about it.

Show your tears to someone

Vitamins hate me. The feeling is mutual. I never took vitamins before, and suddenly I'm taking four every morning. This is the second day of what will most likely become routine. My body is already fighting back; my stomach an innocent bystander caught in the crossfire.

I went and got my marks today. I'm happy with it. In World Issues I got 90% on my ISU, and 92% on the exam. Overall I got a 90, which is exactly what I wanted for that class. I only got 75% on the Discrete exam. I'm ok with that though, because my overall mark is 77. My goal was to keep that mark over 75%, which I did - so I'm happy with myself. You won't hear me complain.

When you feel all alone, and the world has turned its back on you.
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart.

Everyone around me is crashing down. It's funny how everything for everyone seems to fall apart at once. I'm thinking that for the most part it's due to the end of high school for a lot of us. I know it's a big thing, but it didn't turn out the way I thought it would. For me, I find myself spending tons of time with the people from White Oaks. I feel bad because it may seem to people like I'm blowing off all of my Trinity friends. I don't see it like that. I'm still doing all the parties and events.

Acting like a mover shaker, dancing to Madonna then you kissed me.

I was walking to school today after getting my hair trimmed when I ran into Charly, Natalie and Courtney. Greeted with a big: Well look who it is! My friday was apparently interesting enough to catch their attention. I guess my friday was pretty eventful. I had fun. Tons of fun - until I got sick.

I spent yesterday tutoring, or hanging out with Barone. For a few hours I was trying to help ~Kyle and ~Josh with their math. Those poor, poor kids and their math teachers. My heart goes out to everyone. I wish them good luck on their exams too. I hope I helped at least a little bit.

Barone and I hung out a lot. We tried to rent Zelda: Four Swords to play, but it was out everywhere we went. So we played Crystal Chronicles for a big chunk of time. Then I got bored, because I don't have the attention span to play games for very long. I ended up writing in the dates for my agenda. Oh man I'm way to anal for something like that. Then Barone played Tactics Advance, and I went on his MSN.

At one point I had to go to Marta's to get her 3U Math notes for ~Kyle. They were good notes, better than what he and ~Josh had. Hopefully it will have helped him.

I hung out at the park, and then at Timmy's with ~Josh last night. I felt bad because I'm almost positive he should have been studying for his exam. I had fun none the less. We swung on the swings, and then when it got cold we went to Timmy's. Sat and talked about stuff. Good times.

~Mel has her new layout up, which I absolutely adore. And now I have to go figure some things out.

You have angel's wings on your back

The Asian Rave Night is tentatively scheduled for July 16. Location is still unknown, so volunteers are welcome. The night would most likely consist of asian cuisine, music (Ayu, Boa, Puffi, etc.), movies and television (Battle Royale, Iron Chef). It all depends on where we do it, who comes, and what we can get our hands on. Keep in mind this would be a costume event.

The 90s is tentatively scheduled for August 20. Location is unknown so once again, any suggestions or volunteers would be great. The night would most likely be a mock dance (just like we had back in the day), including great hits like Britney Spears, Backstreet Boys, Spice Girls, Aqua, Prozzak, Savage Garden, and more! Costume for this event would probably be easier (see: Side ponytails, and scrunchies).

The markings on the wall were jaded, I wonder why.

Wow what a night. My brain hurts so much. It started off innocently enough. ~Heather and I were at her house planning on a trip to the mall. So we decided that we would invite people. We check with ~Alex, but she couldn't come. ~Abby was ready to come with us as soon as she showered. ~Josh and ~Kyle needed certain purchases made, so they came a long to. We went to the mall and I repurchased the original Savage Garden CD (after my dad took it and lost it). ~Josh got some CDs too. Then we got to embarass ~Heather in Spencer's before she and ~Abby went to look at clothes, and ~Josh and ~Kyle went to Coles to buy a present. I got a new T-shirt from Bluenotes, and that was about it.

Later we met at ~Heather's. I have never been that sick after drinking before. It was horrible. I was fine at the beginning. I was drinking Apple Twist and sharing it with ~Alex. ~Heather wasn't drinking because it makes her really sick, but her sister and her sisters friends were drunk before dinner. So it was loud and entertaining. ~Josh and ~Kyle came and then the fun started. We were eating ice cream (Mint Chocolate Chip and Apple Twist don't mix), and then we let the drinking begin. Sometime through the night more people showed up and we danced on a driveway, and I attempted cartwheels. We did a slutbag thing and started kissing everyone. Pecks for all.

At one point we needed to go get coke for ~Josh, so the two of us walked up to Macs. On the way we walked back through Our Lady of Peace and got harassed by grade 8s. They're very lucky I couldn't stand up properly, or I would have crushed them. I still can, because I know who they were. Stupid kids. In Mac's I broke a display, but it wasn't anything serious. I felt really bad though. I think I donated money to something. I paid by debit too, so that must have been amusing for the guy.

On the way back we had to stop in the park because of was unable to continue walking. I'm not sure what the specifics were that we talked about (I remember general details, and I could rebuild the conversation if I needed to), I just know I loved it. Eventually we had to leave (people came to find us, left, came back, then left again). That's when the puking began. I'm not sure how I managed to make it home in one piece, but I'm willing to bet I have ~Josh to thank for that. Sometime while lying in the bathroom on the floor I realized that I left my phone there. They went back and got it (which must have been a pain in the ass since the battery died, and it turned off - right in the middle of a call with ~Evan). I don't remember them coming back. That's how screwed up I was. Today I puked all day.

I've decided dry heaving sucks. And I need to send out a huge appology to Laura Grouchy for how I treated her in England when she got drunk. I had no understanding of how much it sucked to be in that condition. It was so nice to just have someone there with me, even if we weren't able to talk properly. That was all she wanted. I had to be a prick and leave, because I thought I was better than that. I'm such an asshole.

So all this from a night where I was supposed to be supper innoncent night with a trip to playdium. I did have lots of fun though. I love the Savage Garden CD I got. I've been listening to it non stop. I also tried to get a planner today, but it didn't work out. So I went to McDonald's to visit ~Josh because he told me to. I'll get the planner tomorrow. Maybe even got with ~Natasha again, because we're super cool.

Attention Theme Party Goers: The August Theme Party: 90's Night, is tentatively scheduled for Friday August 20th, following the third friday of every month clause. Right now we need to know how that sounds. We also need to burn CDs for music, so song suggestions would be loverly. Costume ideas are also welcome. Comments should be left in the comment box.

Until next time, on a scale from one to awesome, I'm super great!

a.k.a. Re: WHOA WHOA WHOA

Vote Harper is like Vote Hitler

It bothers me that people are willing to vote for something like Green Party, or NDP. That doesn't bother me as much as the fact that they follow that statement with the following remark: Oh I know it's a waste of my vote.

Your right it is a waste of a vote. Green Party well never be able to do anything useful for Canada, because they'll never be voted in. If NDP was ever voted in you can kiss anything close to a decent budget goodbye. All they'd do was throw money at problems, even if they couldn't afford to do so.

The Liberals are the only party running with a leader competent enough to do something good with our country. Has anyone even looked at the platform for the Conservative Party? Stronger U.S. Relations. Definition of Marriage. The Conservative would turn our countryinto exactly what Australia is dying to be: America Jr. And I'm sure that's just what Canada needs. The only time I would have condoned a conservative vote would have been if Belinda had won leadership. Because she's not incompetent. Her party is, but we could atleast dream that she would have restructured the government ministries and got rid of all the waste. Oh to dream.

Non-Policitcs

I'm the diet coke of emo.

Today I think I hit the school's over thing. After a night of interesting dreams (I'd say less than pleasant, but it would be a lie. They were pleasant to dream. Waking up and becoming conscious to it was what was unpleasant), I woke up and was hit with this sudden realization that school was done. In my mentally weakened and flustered state I was confused. What was I going to do today? I bought a new game, but I don't really have the drive to play it. I guess it's a good thing I'm going to playdium today, or I would lose my mind. I'll probably still lose my mind.

I've realized so many things about myself in the last 24 hours. Not cool things. I'm way to much like Barone. The surface level "polar opposites" thing is slowly dying off, and is making me sad. At least I apparently make him more socially acceptable. I guess thats a good thing. I've also noticed I don't spend a lot of time with my friends. I'm not really that close with many people. It's this thing I've noticed. I'm such a recluse all of a sudden. I don't think it would be fair to actually say that I'm dropping my friends, because I don't think that's actually what it is. I mean, when was the last time I actually did stuff with Heather, ~Mel, Tim, Steve, or even ~Jess (by the way, the link thing is automatic, so you just need to come up in the topic ~Jess).

Maybe I'm just hard to be friends with. Not buddy-buddy friendly, but real close friendship. I know I can go out and I know people from everywhere, and I can be friendly towards so many people. I can keep up conversations with people for as long as I need to. But it's never anything really deep or important. Recently I've noticed it's just been a lot of reminiscing. That's not real friendship though. It's funny too, most of the people I used to be friends with I hardly talk to anymore. Justine and I were talking about how we went everywhere together from like grade 2 to grade 6. She mentioned how her parents said we were going to date in high school. I think we stopped talking in grade 7. I used to be best friends with Mario and Rylan. I don't think any of us talk.

A fun new thing I've noticed. Carrots and Celery. You can probably expect a lot more of "That's so Carrots/Celery" to come from me. Just thought I'd get you prepped for it.

Somewhere I heard someone ask: How long does it take to get over someone you love? Apparently not very long at all.

I make cameos in people dreams.

So today was officially the last day of school. Unlike most people, I went instead of skipping. Boy did a lot of people skip. Combined with the English Exam, there was almost no one in any of the classes. World Issues had five of us. I talk to Justine and Adara for most of the period. Computer Science had three of us. We watched a movie on the development of the computer, and then we played word wrap. Gazebo! I'm so good. Discrete had 5 of us, plus Barone. It was good. Except now I have an exam left.

I really don't want to deal with the exam right now. I feel like crap. The thought of cramming more into my ovreloaded brain makes me want to cry. I'm honestly on meltdown. I don't want to do anymore. 5 more chapters for review, plus looking over tests for an additional 2 chapters. Stab me now. I'm tired of school. I'm going home tomorrow after the exam and sleeping. Or at least as far as things look right now I plan to. Knowing how things work, ~Heather will call me and make me go visit her. Which is what happened today.

After a pizza-type last lunch with Barone, Steve, Denise and ~Mel, I was in my van with my mom driving towards my house so I could drop her off and drive Barone home when ~Heather called. She wanted me to go visit her on the last day. So I dropped Barone off at his house and went over to my school away from school. So I went and saw all my friends from White Oaks that need to have a party for me (in between driving my mom and brother places). The grade 12s there were all emotional about their goodbyes. I didn't feel that way.

Maybe I just turned off all the emotion in me. That doesn't make sense though because I'm definatly on over load right now. I don't want to deal with exams. I know I only have one left, but it's Discrete. I really don't want to study for it, but know I should because I know it's going to be brutal. Instead of studying today, ~Heather and I bought clothes. I bought a whole outfit at American Eagle. Shorts, with top to go with it, complete with socks and boxers. The whole shabang. As if that wasn't enough I went and bought two Homestarrunner shirts that I had been neglecting to buy for almost a year now. So I did it.

Today I gave a tour of my house. We went into my basement and it's all clean and open. I think I want my room to be down there when we redo my basement. That way I can have a TV with DDR nearby, somewhere that isn't hot. I can be alone and not be bothered. Not that I'm bothered now, just it would be even less common. Yes I likes the sounds of that.

Still not wanting to do Discrete. I feel a little queasy. Actually, I feel very queasy. And unbalanced. Maybe it's this on and off vitamin thing I'm doing. I think I need to take a bath. Which is what I'm going to do. Ta-ta for now.

I find it really hard to concentrate on anything with my music blasting in the background now. I don't know when my ears became so damn sensitive. I don't even have the MSN alerts on anymore, because they annoyed me. I'm going to try playing my Ayu again, this time on a lower volume. To those of you who are ignorant, you really need to take the time to broaden your tastes in music. My first suggestion would be anything by Ayu. Then anything by BoA. J-pop is amazing. Mel got me hooked on it. Now I'm getting Heather hooked on it. It's good stuff; Kaitie would agree. Ayu's Evolution is amazing, and BoA's Valenti and No. 1 (Japanese and Korean) are really good.

I'm having serious lighting issues in my room. I generally only use the small lamp on my desk (pointed away from the keyboard to avoid glare, and bright lights in my eyes) to light my room. Except right now my room seems way too dark and I don't like it. So I tried turning on my main light (which is actually three lights on a track light, except two burnt out). Maybe it's not pointed in a good direction but it was too bright and there was too much glare. Guh. I turned it in a non-offensive direction. Things are a little better, but my head still hurts. Maybe too much loud music and the lights are a bad combination. I think things are clearing up.

Natasha wants to write a play based on songs by Bily Idol. I think that would be really cool, and I'd love to see her do it. You know what else I think would be cool? Not a play, but a series of movement pieces to Ayu songs. Simply because it's the emotion in the song that gets transfered to the audience rather than the lyrics, because it's in a nother language. You could do some great things, because there's tons of potential.

So instead of studying for Discrete I went out today. A lot. Torie and I made a trip to the O-ville Place. Well first we went out to Burger King for food, and were frightened by the creepy dad so we ate as fast as we could band booked it out of there. Not fast enough to prevent Torie from shooting her drinking out of the cup. I'm not even sure how the physics of that one work. But it happened, and was amusing. So I went and bought my BEP cd, and Torie wandered around looking for shoes and prom dress accessories. It's nice to be going to her prom with Alyssa and Veronica since she can't come to ours.

After that I prepped to go out and get a BJ with Heather. And what did I see at the end of my driveway. A deer, wandering around. Now there's something you don't see every day. So Heather and I went to get a smoothie. More like I got a smoothie and she decided to get an iced coffee. So we drove back towards OLP's park and hung out there. She saw her friend biking by and he came and stodd with us as we sat on the swings. I haven't had a conversation that random in a long time.

My head is acting up again. I need to go find vitamins. My mom was supposed to buy me some, but I doubt she did. I need shampoo. My mom was supposed to buy me some, but I doubt she did. My mom is getting me money for the Grad After Party form though so that should be fun. Mmm vitamins.

MikeStar Runner signing out.

So I'm almost done now. Today I wrote the World Issue's exam. Last night I was up until 3:00AM doing the review. Today in first period I did the review. Today in third period I went over the review. During lunch I went over the review. What do I have to say now? I wish I had done more work on the essay. Everything went fine though. I'm convinced I got near perfect on the the multiple choice, if not perfect. There's 23. I'm betting on perfect for Spearman's Rank. There's 10, or 9 if he takes off a mark because I said somewhat strong. I doubt it though, because he knows I know. It was strong, I was on overload. Somewhat could be ignored. Perfect on the map. There's another 10. I know I did well on the short answers. The only thing I'm really worried about is the essay. My thesis was so weak, it was ridiculous. However, I couldn't think of anything better than colonialism and distribution. I tied in overconsumption to distribution, but over all it was still a weak weak essay. Le sigh.

Ok so I went over the school website thing. I think it's going to work. There's just some really annoying bug in it right now that repeats the very last character. It only shows up in IE though, and there's nothing in the code that I can find which would warrant the character repeating again. Stupid layout.

Anyways. I'm tired right now. Perhaps I will blog again later tonight. Perhaps not. Mel needs to blog. Jess needs to blog. Kaitie, Natasha, Evan, Alyssa, Torie. Pretty much everyone. Except Eugene. He stays up to date.

It's now after 2:30, and I'm still up. Why am I up? Because I'm trying to finish my World Issues exam review. Which is tomorrow. I also had a 5 hour nap which was only supposed to be an hour or so. So, my sleep patterns are officially royally screwed up. Not to mention suddenly taking vitamins didn't help the situation. I'm stopping on the review now. I'm not going to get anything coherent done at this hour of the morning. The sad part is, I'm not going to get any sleep either, because I'm not tired. So if I got to bed I'll just be really restless. It's not fun.

Now that we're hitting the beginning of exams, pre-exam stress is at an all time high. Everyone is ready to explode from the looks of things. Wow, so much for everyone being able to handle all the pressure. I wouldn't have thought so earlier today, but right now if someone asked I would tell them I'm stressed. Although exams aren't necessarily the only stressful thing around.

I absolutely hate how much of an impact I have on people. Right now, I honestly wish this was just me having a huge ego, and telling everyone I had an impact on people when I really didn't. If only things would be that simple. Then I wouldn't have to deal with things.

Apparently I'm emotionally complex. Thinking on it, odds are I'm emotionally complex because of all the crap people dump on me. Now, I'm by no means depressed or outraged, and I'm not about to sulk into a corner or do something stupid. I'm just saying. The last month and a half meant sudden shuffling around in my life. So that was one thing I had to adjust to and deal with. I'm moving along just fine, thanks for your concern.

June brought about the beginning of the end of the year. Not just the end of any highschool year, but the end of my final year in high school. So as you can expect, tension is just a little high. My 31st and June 1st were non stop World Issues Culminating Essay writing. Now, it was more compiling that writing, but it was still a time sink. June 1st was also studying for the last Discrete test of the year. On June 2nd I ended up waking up early and finishing my essay and typing it out. That night was also an outing to see fame, which was obligatory based on certain friendships. They couldn't have picked a busier time. Well the could have picked this week. June 3rd was the Grad Brunch. June 4th I had personal stuff to deal with. So that was just my first week of June. Keep in mind that essay writing and discrete studying takes up much more time than what can be displayed in a paragraph. I was busy all night.

That weekend was study all weekend for the upcoming Culminatings. The 7th and 8th was Discrete Math Culminatings, which were stressful. The 9th, 10th and 11th were Computer Science Culminatings. I had to hand in the edited essay on the 9th for World Issues. The final World Issues test was on the 10th. Computer Science ended up taking all night for most of those nights. Discrete took all night for it's nights. I had no social life. So now I'm doing the exam reviews. World Issues is tomorrow. Well today. In less than 12 hours. That's fun. My brain is malfunctioning. Maybe I'm not emotionally complex, maybe I'm just a big ball of stress.

I'm apparently very demanding of people. I would sincerly hope that isn't true, or that if it is true it isn't as bad as I think it sounds. I can understand that I expect a lot from people. Maybe it's because I'm willing to give so much. Maybe it's because I know that they can do better. I'll have to check back on that. How's that for adding to complexity. It doesn't help that people expect so much from me. I ... I don't even want to get into it right now. I think I'm going to go to bed. Consider this entry cut short.

So bored that I decided our school website needs to be redesigned. So I did that. Without permission, or consent or anything. Now, I'm not done yet. There needs to be some graphical enhancement done (by which I mean the pictures for the banner aren't uploaded yet). And, I still need to present the idea to the teacher advisors, but I don't see a problem with it. It looks a little more professional than the current layout. It actually works. There's tons of bugs on the layout right now. When yo ugo back, the page doesn't resize properly. Junk like that. Not fun junk, but junk that's there.

My weekend definatly could have used some spice. The problem with me saying that is it definatly did have spice. Friday night I went out all night with Natasha, Evan, and Barone. The night included rush hour traffic driving to Etobicoke, and back to Oakville. Then it involved pseudo-rush hour traffic driving to the Sauga to go to Playdium. God bless DDR. I hadn't gone out with Barone in a while (excluding the one trip with Heather at midnight), so it was fun. Poor Natasha and Evan though. They didn't play at all, they just wandered around. We saw the girl who challenged me at Burlington Silver City. We talked about how she beat me, but she cheated. It was good times. Then she was madly hitting on me, in between trying to figure out if I was straight or not.

After that we went back into the O-ville to get something to eat at Philthy McNasty's. I had Fajitas. Yum. I love fajitas. We had a great discussion on the differences between Fame and Somebody to Love. We had a lot of good discussions. Too bad Evan doesn't go to Trinity.

Alberta: Everyone here thinks they're from Texas.
Manitoba: No one lives here.
New Brunswick: No one ever blames anything on New Brunswick.

After that we skipped out on a party to go to Barone's to watch Robin William's Live On Broadway. He's so funny. It's amazing. I would have loved to have been there to see it live. But watching it again and again on a movie will suffice.

Satuday I spent most of the morning doing nothing of interest. I went to Waterloo with my parents to see the campus. I was actually disappointed. But that doesn't mean I won't go there. I've made up my mind. I just thought it was small. It was quaint though, which was nice. City of Waterloo only has a population of 99 000 people. It's a good thing Kitchener is next to it with 199 000. After that I got Evan and we went to my neighbours BBQ. Which was indoors by the time we go there.

I think it amuses me that Oakville is still a town at 145 000 and Waterloo is a city at 99 000. Go Oakville! Fight the man! It's one of those little things Oakville does, that may not make sense. Just like the Halton School boards do things that don't make sense. Take the Roman Catholic Board, and what they did with Holy Trinity. Instead of spending money, they made two carbon copy schools: Holy Trinity, and Christ the King. Of course with the money they saved from that, they couldn't have used foresight to see that Trinity would have populations. They couldn't have spent the extra money to add a fourth floor with lots more classrooms. Of course not, because that would have been better in the long run.

Of course by the long run, we mean three years later. Trinity's now at full capacity and is expecting tons of portables next year. Congratulations on excellent planning.

Enter the theme parties. Alyssa and I plan on organizing various theme parties sometime soon. These would be random parties somewhere with food, movies, music, and games.

For example: The 90's Party. Since the early 90's were like the pseudo-80s we would expect people to come in tight pants and shirts, with side ponytails and those snap bracelets. Music would include the greats such as Aqua, Chumbawumba, Backstreet Boys, and Spice Girls.

Another example: The Asian Night. This would be the super asian rave night. Including all out krazi asian costumes such as pants with random buckles, random leather, various animal tails, and mesh-type shirts over real shirts. Music videos, CDs, and some great Japanese Cinema would be a must.

We shall see how this turns out. I definatly need to start watching TV again. Listening to old music has reminded me how much I miss shows. Like Undergrads. And Degrassi. I need to make an effort to start watching these shows again. I should just buy a TV for my room, it would make things easier for me.

I'm so bored right now I could scream. Aside from studying for exams I have nothing to do. Which means I have nothing entertaining to do. I was hoping to get out and take pictures today, but the sun is not out which sucks. So it will have to be postponed. I still have to finish the PD table for my Computer Science Culminating. I still have to study for the World Issues Exam on Tuesday. I still have to study for the Discrete Exam on Thursday. Barf barf barf. Yay for in class study periods.

I'm still incredibly cranky from last night. I'm pretty sure I figured out what it was. Last night I took vitamins. Now, normally I wouldn't expect vitamins to be a big deal. Except I haven't taken vitamins since I was like 8. Odds are I don't get anywhere near the recommended daily intake of anything. So after 8 years of not taking vitamins, my body adjusted only to have tons of vitamins shot into my system. That or I just had a really bad nap.

I'm also incredibly annoyed. I had friends who always wanted to do stuff. While I was busy. And they knew I was busy. It's just widning down from exam time. Last week and the week before was pretty much non-stop Culminatings, final tests, and review. So what happens? They all get upset because I'm not making time for them and now we don't talk. I think I'm going to scream. Maybe I'm crazy, but to me that is one of the dumbest reasons and/or excuses to get mad at someone. Maybe I'm just a prick.

I'm going to go bounce around in circles like The Mikestar Runner

I'll be jiggered!

Oh my god. Jess' new layout is gorgeous. Fucking gorgeous. I love it to a million pieces. Excuse me while I go clean up my drool. Plus, I can read it now! You HTML isn't crappy. It's just not easily converted to XHTML. Big difference. I want to know where you got that picture. Wow I'm so in like ... Asia-land. Or awe.

World Issues is near end. Wednesday the essays were originally due, so I handed mine in. Natasha did a nice job of ripping it to itsy bitsy pieces. I wish I could have done the same for her. Unfortunatly I didn't. I tried. Originally I thought I was just bad at ripping, but then her mom only changed two sentences. So that means it's just one damn good essay. Thursday was the last test in that class. It was short, because of the assembly schedule. It seemed easy enough, but I'm not sure about the short answer questions. I really didn't know what he wanted. The exam is on Tuesday and then we're done.

The Computer Science class is done. Over. Finito. Escape. As much as other people hated the culminating, I liked it. I did it three different ways too. We started on Wednesday and I did it one way. The way I did it was easy, and cheating. Not really cheating. It just didn't do what he wanted so I had to change it. Thursday I started the second way. The second way is the one that I'm handing in. It's done. Well almost. I just need to spruce it up. I' have a code for if you enter 0 as the first digit in the number. But then it doesn't replace the arrays properly. I'm too tired to care right now. Maybe later. The third way I need to check some things out to see what's wrong.

Thursday there was a screwed up schedule, and an assembly at the end of the day. We skipped. Natasha, Kaitie, Denise, Alyssa, Barone and I went out for ice cream. Then we went to Mastermind. I love Mastermind. I'm going to go buy a Thomas the Tank Engine set, and create a huge track in my basement. Which reminds me I need to go buy it. Barone and I wandered around BlockBuster trying to find a game to play. We were originally going to play tonight, but plans have gotten a little jiggered up. So I think we're going to go to Playdium with Evan, Natasha and maybe even Jess. Then I have to take us to a party. Yay for partying with Natasha.

Today the Physics class fired their trebuchets. We went down to the firing during Discrete. I was in heaven. I love trebuchets. They're so much fun. I want one. I wish that I had taken the class, just so I could have made one and played with it. It would have maybe been worth taking a science. I think I'm going to buy a huge chunk of land and make a massive medieval pantball war. It will be fun. I have tons of pictures too. They're not up yet. But I did put up pictures from the Grad Brunch.

So we have elections coming up. Our school did Student Vote. Everyone's getting in the mood. At our school Conservatives had 36%, Liberals had 33% and NDP had 10%. If Canada votes anything like our school, we may as well just kill outselves. Canada is going to be in for a big surprise if the Conservatives get into power. A bad surprise.

Paul Martin is the only party leader who has a hope at doing something good for this country. So now we run into a problem. If he is clearly the only one who has a chance to make good change, why is the election forecast gloomy? Simple really: People are stupid. For a country that apparently prides itself on having more common sense and being more informed than our neighbours to the south, we really don't show it. Now I know why Eugene gets so angry all the time.

So why don't people want to vote for the Liberals? Well first off we have the sponsorship scandal. Well, I hate to break it to everyone - but those things are a few steps down the ladder from Martin or Chretien. So don't even bring that up, unless you're an idiot. Then by all means, go ahead and look like an idiot. I'm not going to stop you.

So what else do we have? Chretien was in power for too long, we need change. Guess what! 500 points to whoever realized that we did get change. Good change, in the form of a Prime Minister who isn't incompetent (like the other Party Leaders). Not only that, it didn't cost us an election. Saying we need change is a really stupid reason for people to suddenly switch from Liberal to another party.

It's almost as dumb a reason as people who don't want to vote Federal Liberal anymore because they don't like the Provincial Liberals in Ontario. I'm not even going to continue with that. Actually I can't even continue with this, my head threatens to explode. I guess all I can say is: If you're going to vote for a party, make it for the right reasons. Not because your parents are voting for that party. Not because your friends are voting for that party. Not because the cool kids are voting for the party. Especially not because you think the leader is hot (Eew). Vote for who you think will do the best job running our country. It's your country too. If you're not careful you could end up with someone like George Bush running Canada. I don't even want to imagine what that would be like.

Busted! - What I Go To School For

6 friggen hours. I demand them back. ~Jess owes me 6 hours of my life. That's how long it took my to fix all the code in the archives. From layouts she made. Bad code for you! Ugh. It was so mentally draining. By the end I was ready to scream, or cry, or explode. But now I have nice layouts. I don't care if the back and forward don't align properly in IE. Don't use IE, it's a hunk of crap. When I told ~Jess, she thought I had played with her blog. Way to not communicate Barone!

I came home after the culminating today. It was not fun. Like, it all should have been common sense. However, common sense is an area I'm seriously lacking in. So it sucked. And I got to come home and fix up my essay. It didn't take as long as I thought it would, which is good. Now it's all prepped and ready to go. Now Natasha needs to finish hers so I can edit it.

I got to play FFXI today. I leveled up. Once. Then died, and gave up. I need to get new armor, but I have no money. Which puts a serious block infront of my plan. Right now the plan is BLM to 9, WHM to 18, BLM/WHM to 30, SUM/BLM. Well the immediate plan is kill crawlers to get some friggen decent armor. Stupid black mages being easy to kill.

New pictures!

I did decently on the Discrete Culminating. Actually, coming out of it I had thought I did an amazing job. Then I realized that I didn't check if the planes were coplanar on the last question. That left me with a point, instead of a triangular prism. Oh well. The culminating itself was really well written. There were parts where if you did something stupid, you would be like: What? Only because you knew it should work. (i.e. Dividing by 2AB instead of -2AB while isolating cosC. Whoops). The questions were entertaining to read too. Stupid triangular prism. Tomorrow is part two on Chapter 10 and 11, and is apparently easier. Yay!

Natasha peer edited my World Issues essay. By which I mean, Natasha completely destroyed my World Issues essay. Which is good. I was really sick and tired, and not coherent when I wrote it. Apparently it showed in the essay. She ripped it, because it was that or I get a bad mark. So I'm glad it was ripped. Now I have to rewrite it. And rip hers back.

Alanis Morissette - Perfect

I'm so friggen angry. I hate Discrete. That course took my love for math and shattered into into a million tiny little pieces. Pieces that are stuck in my eyes and brain as I try to study for the stupid course culminatings. I know I'm going to fail. I've accepted that. I just wish I didn't have to know I was going to fail. I would be happy if I could go in thinking I had a chance. Not going to happen. I know the way things work. There's no mistaking the desire for me to do poorly either. I can't wait until it's over. I'll never again have to see: This was a homework question. I'll never again have to hear: That was a homework question. It doesn't friggen help me knowing it was a homework question. I now have stress relating illnesses because of that class. Officially diagnosed. I hope you're happy.

I'm so angry with myself. I tried to study today. I'm trying again now. I got nothing. I sticky-noted a bunch of pages with the concepts we're supposed to know. I know them. I just know it'll be better if they're sticky noted. I've been trying to find certain things that we were supposed to know. I'm totally clueless. Geometric Interpretation is no where to be found. I'm confused about what I'm supposed to know for Normals in R3. Does that include planes, and intersections of the planes? What about Dot and Cross Product? Most of the notes were on application with vector projections. We were told there aren't any vector projections on the culminating, they're on the exam. Sigh. Make it go away.

I took breaks today. A lot of breaks. I went out and got a pita for lunch. I reinstalled FFXI last night. So I played it today. I had to delete my characters on Ramuh. Everyone that I was on Ramuh for was gone; they had all stopped playing. Barone got me a worldpass to Kujata, so I started there. Same thing - Still Eluamos the TaruTaru mage. I got to level 5. Which is alot considering I played the whole way through last time and only got to 13. Or 15. I honestly don't remember. Whatever level Blackmages get fire at. I had to take a break after that though. I need to save up for Water. It was a lot of fun playing with Barone. He just followed me around; just so I wouldn't be doing it solo. It was really nice.

I played a bunch of FFTA too. That game make me so angry at times though. Like I can't begin to explain it. I'm playing along fine, and then all of a sudden everyone starts dying - when I should be able to kill the enemy. Not to mention the game takes like 40 minutes for one mission. It's very draining.

Busted! - Meet You There

Some people are really confusing. Stupid, and confusing. I don't get any of you. First, you. You are an idiot. Not just an idiot, a dumb idiot. Redundant, I know. Dumb ugly idiot, who thinks he's funny - but isn't; thinks he's smart - but isn't; thinks he's hot - but isn't. Now explain to me, Mr. Dumb Ugly Idiot, where you come off telling someone hott (with two t's) that you can't go out with them because you won't get any by the third date. Hi, you're a virgin. You haven't gotten any - ever. You can't set up a limit as to when you have to get some by before you can go out with a person, if you haven't got any. It just doesn't work. Not only does it not work normally, but it's even worse when you make the person feel like crap after doing this. Go join Bush in Iraq.

Now, as for you! I sincerly hope that what just happened is because you didn't want to be with who you wound up with, and you instead wanted to be with someone else (who's hott). Although I've never actually met the person you wound up with: What the hell are you doing?! I mean. Argh. I can't formulate the sentences in my brain, it confuses me so much. It also provoked a random flashback as to when I was in my old neighbour's aunt's house eating borscht. Don't ask. I don't know. Right now, I'm hoping that logically the conversations that followed were because you wanted the person to know that you would rather be with them, and this is a pity thing. Let's hope.

You know I've never finished a Final Fantasy game. I've tried Final Fantasy 7 a lot. I really really need to get around to it. I'm not the kind of person to play games anymore. I'm much more involved with the story, the dicussions, and the analysis - rather than the actual playing of any game. Luckily ~Evan likes it too, so he gets to play while I sit and watch. Definatly not complaining. Not in the slightest. I digress. I've never finished the game. I got it right when it came out too. Or shortly thereafter. Maybe not, I can't remember exactly. I never ended up playing by myself. Final Fantasy is the one series I can't play by myself. FFXI for obvious reasons; That game made me cry. The mechanics were absolutely horrid - especially for anyone who actually played a real MMO. I think I'm going to reinstall it though, and play again. Sigh. FFCC was different too. That games a bitch in multiplayer. It's so friggen complicated to fight and move. I'll probably end up playing that with ~Evan too. But I digress - again.

There are so many things about FF7 that I loved. I never even really got that far. The intro to the game was so amazing though. The fact that you were dropped right into the plot adds to the confusion of the hero. For me, the connection between not really knowing what you were doing - and Cloud not really knowing where he was going in life - made it feel that much more like reality. I'm also a sucker for the setting. The dirty slummy world of Midgar was just what I loved (creepy side note: In the second Tomb Raider movie, the scene at the Flower Pagoda reminds me of Midgar. Alot. Creepish similarities). The characters were really cool. At least to me. I think the people I played with at the time (Slopes, and then Kenny McKoy) made the game that much more interesting. Until it got pushed away but a number of other things I had to do.

I'm determined to finish it this time. I don't see why I wont. Summer's coming up. Although I might get a summer job, or I might take Japanese in summer school, I forsee a lot of free time. I'm also playing FFXI again (or at least I'm attempting to), which would force it on me as well. I think I've decided to not take Korean in first year at Waterloo. It would make things too complicated. Two langauges courses probably isn't the best idea for first year at any university, nevermind when you're taking a co-op program. I'll probably take a business course. I'm not sure if I'm going to do Advanced Maths either.

8 school days until exams. Only, it's not really. Discrete Culminating start on Monday, running until Tuesday. Apparently I Harry Potter & The Prisoner of Azkaban.
I hate to say it, but I was disappointed. The movie was long. Not only was it long, but it there were parts where it was like: Oh this is boring. The problem with that is, they cut so much out of the story for the movie, that pieces were missing. The bigger problem with that is that some of the important things that were missing only would have taken a few minutes total to add into the movie, and once added in the story would have been more connected. As it stands right now anyone who was just watching the movies would be very very lost. Not exactly a good thing to say about a movie. The book will obviously have a more indepth story than the movie of any series, but movie-goers should'nt be lost or confused watching the movie.

I'm not sure I liked the switch from robes to clothing either. It looks like it was done to make the main characters more attractive, which isn't exactly a good thing. Also, because most of the book was cut out from the movie, the scenes that were kept generally were ones where they could have worn regular clothing. Which means that they did wear the regular clothing. Which just bothered me. The acting didn't get better. Despite what reviews have said about Daniel Radcliffe's acting, there was no improvement. He's horrible. Every single person in Fame was a better actor than him. His dad's the producer. Gross.

I'm playing around with the way blogs are viewed. Last time I tried hiding parts of the entry. It worked, a little. By that I mean parts of the entry were hidden. It didn't hide it like I would have liked though, which I should have expected because things hardly ever work out like I like. Instead of dropping down, and having the page drop down with it it would leave a blank space. I should have seen it coming, I was just to excited to have finally found something that might have worked to clue in. Oh well. Now I'm going to try manually placing anchors in the archived entry. Which means I need to do a nice archived entry layout. Which reminds me I need to finish the Destination Unknown Layouts. Bah. It'd better not rebuild over my changes. Which it will. Damnit. Didn't work.

So the last two days have been extremely eventful. I'm not even sure where to start. Well that's a lie. I'm clearly going to start with Wednesday. Wednesday was a brutal brutal day. Only because of the Math test, which everyone apparently failed. Well not everyone; I bet Kevin and Jordan got like 100%. Stupid math-eaters. After that I went home and napt, until it was time to get ready to go see Fame. For a little pre-Fame fun, ~Torie and I drove around to find food from various places. We ended up getting a smoothie from Booster Juice, and then went to Harvey's - BSB blasting! Of course, the smoothie made me have random sharp shooting pains because I put too much of the Combo Booster in it. Randomly starting twitching and lost control of my mouth. Much to ~Torie's amusement. Of course, the guy with lipstick made it that much easier. I never ended up eating, because I lost my appetite after I started to seize.

Fame was fricken amazing. It was so good. I'm so glad that they were able to take such a horribly written play, and turn it into something that enteraining. I had so much fun watching it. And then felt like the biggest ass ever. I was amused at one of the costumes and laughed. Well apparenlty, it was too much for the person. I felt so horrible. What he had assumed I was laughing at (and implying) wasn't what I was doing. Not at all. Grr. Totally killed the mood. But I still had fun.

Stupidity:
My name is Torie! I am stupid. And yaaargh! *Drive forward instead of reversing*. My stupidity was so grand, that it had to be hidden from view.

After Fame, we went out to Dairy Queen. Another place where I was unable to eat my food. I spent so much money on it too, I'm such an idiot. But it was amsuing. Hamburger managed to come out of my nose? Eew. Definatly eew. There were so many funny things, I can't even start to remember them. Then fun didn't end there either. We hung around outside and I tried to convinve the girls to pick up guys for money. It didn't work. So we drove around, being all cool with BSB blasting, windows down, singing with full arm motions. Good times. We wandered around Lakeshore (in our cars) before driving to Timmy's to use the facilities.

{Torie: He won't hold me anymore!}

Torie, is quite the genious. Not only does she drop my phone, but she manages to make no sense when trying to say I won't let her hold it anymore. Congratulations!

Today is Thursday. Thursday meant Grad Brunch. I honestly didn't have as much fun as I thought I would. I mean, the food was good, and laughing was always enjoyed. There was just something about it. I was even in the slideshow a few times, which is something I hadn't expected because I didn't submit any pictures of me. So to make up for it, we hung out at Kaitie's for movie day. I dont know what it is, but Kaitie manages to have cool random "chill-time" get togethers. We need more of those.

I've been trying to find out and see if there's something like lj-cut in MT. It would definatly make things alot easier. I was considering writing Javascript for it, but that would take lots of effort. I'll do it, if I find out there isn't anything like it.

Tomorrow means my escape to Vaughan, and Wonderland. I'm super excited.

I tried to turn my life into a story. A typical, happily ever after story. Of course, it didn't work out as nicely as I would have hoped. Now, I wasn't expecting something that would reach fairy tale levels of happiness. There was obviously going to be stress, and anger, and in some cases hate. Now of course it wasn't supposed to drag on forever until it got bland and uninteresting. Now I'm just bitter from trying to please too many people.

Stupid stupid stupid math test. I'm so upset with myself. I screwed up big on two questions. Two questions that are worth a quarter of the test. God damnit. So there goes my mark again. Sigh. Do you know what the response to my not understanding one of the questions was? "Oh well that was one of the homework questions." Big fucking deal. There were a lot of homework questions. Am I expected to remember all of them? This is the only class in my whole highschool career where I've done the homework regularly. Ever. There was not one other class where I did my homework. I'm still doing brutally. I'm going to have to kick ass on the culminatings now. I can't help bad vibes are sent out when asking for help.

Waterloo package came today. Now to pick courses and where I want to stay for rez. I'm not sure how it works yet. I know for sure that one of my two math courses is going to be the introductory Japanese. It's offered and Renison. What I don't know is if that means I have to take all my classes at Renison. If it does, I guess I'll deal with that. Sharing a room with someone isn't that big of a deal. I'd just much rather stay in one of the suites, where at least the bed is to myself. Maybe they'll have single rooms. So many other questions. Not cool.

I like panties.

Today decided to be the day where everyone exploded. It wasn't exactly the most enjoyable day ever. Some people don't know when to keep their noses out of other people's businesses. They are also completely oblivous to the grief that is caused when they stick their noses in where they don't belong. It's a pain in the ass really. There were many hurt feelings.

So what happened to you? I remember how happy it used to be. It was one of the greatest summers of my life. You of course had to be an ass and ruin it. I was lucky enough to know how to deal with things like that. Looking back I do miss what could have been. Don't cry over spilt milk.

And what about you? Do you remember how much fun it used to be. What with the laughing, and the smiling. All of the sudden all that I feel is a lot of bitterness. I can't always make you happy. As much as I try, and I wish everything would work out - it isn't always that simple.

So I spent the day sleeping, and working on new layouts for ~Alyssa and ~Torie. Instead of doing my homework. I couldn't really concentrate. I might finish up the Discrete review if I'm feeling up to it, or do the conclusion for my World Issues essay. I'm not sure.

I'm almost not part of my family anymore. Sigh.