The Mike Haddad Show: This is relevant to my interests.

Well, the countdown is on. One month is the time frame for this challenge. If it's possible to achieve in the time frame, I'm sure I'll be abel to achieve it. I've been planning on it for a while now, and at this point in time I'm actually inpsired enough to do it; plus it's getting me an iPod.

Speaking of that inspiration, what a weekend I had. Friday during the day I was off the friggen walls. I was so excited, and happy. Over all, I was in one of the best moods I had been in that I can remember. If only I was still in that good mood by the end of the weekend. It's not that Friday night and Saturday were bad. It was just certain things. For instance, the realization that no matter how hard I try, unless someone eis willing to try with me nothing is going to happen. It was just a little disheartening [Note: Mr. Anonymous, I expect you to continue commenting since I'm sure it makes your day to know how I feel right now]. As upset as I am, I don't think this one's going to stop any time soon, no matter how much other people would like it to.

Ironically, I've found myself wanting a relationship recently. To most peopel this is either going to be confusing or fucking hilarious (I know Miguel got a number of great laughs out of it). Mainly because I can never get a relationship to work. This isn't an invitation for the world to look at me as fresh meat that they can come harass so I'll date them. There are a few conclusions I've come to on the subject. Saturday after a long talk with Natasha I've decided a number of things need to be a certain way for a relationship to work. First, for me to be in a relationship with someone, there needs to be a lot of common interests. Not every single common interest, but either a good chunk of common interests, or similar interests. I'm trying to work around it, but for the most part I'm not going to bring it up anymore. I'm not that needy. Second, there needs to be a similar maturity level. I've had a number of problems with this one in the not-so-recent past. Essentially almost all of them up until September. I've also had some cases where I have to act as the immature one. Not going to happen anymore. Now, this one doesn't worry me so much. Two cases exist that I can think of, and both of them there's no major problem. Third, I need to understand the person and how they work, and they need to have at least some idea about how I work. This one has caused me nothing but trouble in the past.

I had a long talk with Adam on Saturday too. Mainly about what the hell we're going to do with our lives. For the most part it was me. I don't know what I'm going to do after school. Hell, I don't even know what I'm going to do for co-op. There's so much I'm doing right now to try and become remotely qualified. Consider the following: I'm extremely comfortable with HTML, XHTML, and CSS. I can get PHP to work for me. XHTML is a type of XML. Now consider what I need to do to try and get a basic web development placement. I'm going through massive books on the following: XML, PHP, SQL, ASP. On top of having a massive book for it, I'm also building a second PC to run Red Hat Linux to try and figure that out. All I need is a KVM switch. Or a second monitor and keyboard and junk. The switch it looking like the more appealing option. Now with all this, what is it I want to do when I graduate? Open a night club. Omai.

Sunday when I got back to Waterloo the strangest thing happened to me. I was feeling really really wierd, so I decided I'd go visit Kate (the don). I walked into her room , got halfway through asking if she was busy and then broke down. I have no idea how she did it, but she did. Man I felt dumb. I was standing there almost laughing: "I have no idea how or why I'm crying!" It was amusing. So we sat and talked. I told her how I essentially ruined everything on the weekend. I went over pretty much the whole week. We talked about how I hate it here, but moving away isn't really a good option. So the conclusion was go to Toronto for co-op, and go to CIF alot. I'm attempting to do both. I got a locker in CIF today. I also ordered my iPod! Yay Yay Yay! I'm excited for the gym now. Except I don't get the iPod for like two weeks. So I'm working with torrent site that are still running to download what I think I want (which isn't much considering all the CDs I own).

Monday sucked. I woke up to find that I had lost $150 cash I was planing to deposit. So that was a huge kick in the pants. I still haven't found it. I don't expect to find it either. Some lucky fuck probably found it. So much for getting comp parts. I had to take money out my flex dollars. And now I'm short for the KVM switch. It's all really crappy. Oh well. I'll figure it all out. I went to four banks yesterday to try and apply for Credit Cards. I was autoapproved at TD for the GM card. Royal Bank had me fill something out. I need to fill something out for CIBC. ScotiaBank won't give me one until I have a job. So now I'm getting cards. I need to go do my fucking CS Assignment now.