The Mike Haddad Show: This is relevant to my interests.

I'm waiting for my food to digest before I head to the gym, so I thought I'd blog. Interesting story. I went grocery shopping today with Mike. I don't have money to spend on groceries, so I splurged and bought two bags of cookies. We came back, Mike put them in the cupboard as I was getting ready to eat. I figured I'd move them into my room when I was done dinner. So I walked to REV to get dinner but the caf was closed. So I walked to V1 and got a sub. I ate it and came back. What had happened in what was less than half an hour? One of the bags was gone. Go fucking figure. I'm angry. I'm annoyed. At this point, I don't think I'd care if he found out. I'd never say anything to his face because I'm too nice for that. But I know it was him. Dave's gone, and Mike didn't take them. So at this point I've had it with all the little quirks. As helpful as he's tried to be it's just not enough anymore. Never ever have I seen him do the dishes. Ever. The one time he "helped" with the dishes, he washed about two of them. I did the rest. The dirty dishes are all his too. Him and his friends always come in and make a mess in the lounge. Then they eat all the food and dirty all the dishes. Never do they clean them either. So that does it. I'm never ever again going to put food in that cupboard. I'm about ready to take out everything that is mine in there. In fact. After I finish on the phone with Sympatico, I'm going to go bring them into my room and then go to the gym. Fuck.

There's another thing that bothers me. Whatever fucking modem they sent me doesnt work. At this point in time I'm fed up. Especially since they're charging me for this. My annoyance is just building up to the point where I'm going to explode on everyone about everything that's been bothering me. It's not healthy. Speaking of not healthy. I hate boys. I've decided. They are not worthing liking, dating, sexing. Anything. Period. You find a boy where you think it can fucking work, and what happens? It doesn't work. Should I be surprised? No not really. I'm still upset though. I guess that's what you get. Not really worth my time. No matter how much people tell me I should think positive, because thinking positive equals being positive which leads to confidence and results - I just don't see it happening. I just don't care anymore. Conversation is dead, no matter how I try. The interest is waning simply because I don't see a future in this. Oh well.

So that brings up the question of what am I going to do for the next hop. Well, I essentially was going for him. I was going with Adam and Miguel, but deep down I was going for him. So, as I begin the 3 step process of getting rid of this, I'm going to have to figure out what I need to do. As much as Miguel suggests "play hard to get" I won't do it. Well, not with the intention of doing it so he wants me. That would be stupid. I don't work like that anyways. I'm just going to get over it. If sometime later there seems to be a spark of interest, then maybe we can move on from there. At this point, as sad as it is to say it, I don't expect it. Even with the dreams I've started having. Stupid, fucking dreams. The good news is, I get my blood test results back on thursday. I don't think I need to worry though. I feel like I'm getting back in the game. I think. I think I don't care anymore. I'm going to the gym, to work off this frustration, and annoyance, and anger, and sadness (bad grammar!) and whatever the fuck else I feel like working off.