February 2005 Archives

Before you start, I'm going to leave you with these warnings. First, this entry (much like the one I'm basing it on), is probably going to have very little flow to it. I appologize in advance, and will not be held responsible for any brain asplosions. Second, this entry might be what someone considers a little cut-throat. I'm going to try my best to keep it as civil as possible, just discussion my distaste for certain actions made by certain people. So, with that said, you are reading this of your own free will so I will not be held responsible for any resulting hurt feelings. Third, just so you know this entry is definatly not coming down (The other one's going to go back up soon, if I don't get a good reason to keep it down).

Where to start? The other day I had altercation with a friend of mine. I'm not really sure if it's actually fair to call him a friend; our relationship was always extremely catchy. If I were to go back through conversations we had, I'd be hard pressed to find one that didn't end with a fight. It's always fun looking back to try and figure out what sparks these fights; I can never remember what the cause was. It's almost as if we're stuck in some epic battle, doomed to repeat the same thing over and over again. I don't understand it. Eventually the fight degenerates into bickering about the difference in our lifestyles, including the ever so lovely arguement over who's lifestyle is better based on who is more mature. Well, I don't know what to do with that.

I'm having serious issues dealing with a number of people right now. In one facet of my life, I'm being introduced to the lovely life of the scene homosexuals. The life where you have people making ridiculous claims about their lifestyle, and then trying to figure out what's true and what's only a half truth. That's the fun in meeting people on the internet. You can make up a whole new persona tailored to deal with all the faults in your life. Then you have to go out and try and remember what you told who about your magnificient life, and I watch as people's stories contradict previous ones that they had told to different people. Making claims about your maturity doesn't actually make you mature. In fact, one could make the claim that an immature person who is willing to accept his immaturity is displaying more maturity than someone making wild claims about their maturity that are contradicted by their actions later.

I have one friend who's life exploded, and I've found myself incapable of dealing with all the issues surrounding that. For the most part, I'm at a loss with what to do or say. There's some sort of strange complex that's acting as a catalyst and making all these things worse. Luckily it's a person I love to death; a person who understands me (and more importantly, my inability to understand the innerworkings of certain minds). I'm doing my best to make it work, I swear.

I have another friend how was always a little crazy. Now that friend is completely insane, to the point where I am unable to have a conversation with him without wanting to punch someone. It's almost pathetic. There's a love triangle. More like a two-lane road, with a one way street tangent (that goes in the opposite way as the person is travelling). That's the best analogy I can make. Everyone who used to be sane in my life is now gone. Its nice to see what university does. I'm at my wit's ends here trying to stay sane. Two more months of residence life and then I'm gone. I can't wait. I need to get out of her.

Two friends asked me to move into them. They're a couple. I don't think I can deal with that right now. I'm going to have to tell them. It wasn't good for me either. Actually, it was really bad for me. The lease was may to may. I would only be there from september to december. Waste for me. Hopefully they can find someone else that can live with them.

I'm looking at what I can do for co-op. I'm probably going to be taking two or three distance ed courses if I don't get a co-op job. Not getting a co-op job mean that I'll be doing websites for people that need them, with lots of spare time in between. I think that if I don't get a co-op job I'll just be making a website for my mother's real estate business. That will give me a lot of free time to study. Right now I think my courses will be: RS100A (Religions of the East), RS100B (Religions of the West), HIST252 (Roman History), and possibly either HIST100 (History of Modern Europe) or HIST387 (Ontario since Confederation). I definatly also need to see if I can get an East Asian Studies Minor.

I've had serious issues dealing with myself recently. I find I've become very confrontational with certain people, while with other people I've become so non-confrontational that you could make the claim I'm ignoring their existance. I'm going to need to work on that. I've also found myself making the claim that people are attempting to make themselves feel superior by fighting with me about certain things. Which has been very true on a number of cases. However, it's also made me wonder about this epiphany I could have had. Is it possible that my claims that people use me to make themselves feel superior actually has more to do with how I feel inferior to everyone else.

The status is temporarily hood. You all know how I feel about censoring my entries. I'd just like to say it's not sensored. I'm requesting one good reason before I make this permanent. Not libel or harassment; I want a real reason (Those wouldn't hold up anyways, there are no names). Deep down, a part of me is longing to hear "I want to fix this." I know better though. So whatever, I'll temporarily appease the gods.

CS Midterm tonight. Boy am I ready to fail. I'm still not coherent at all. Well I'm pretty coherent. I'm chugging away at my list of thigns to do before I start studying. Basically all I have to do is eat (mmm cereal), and then I'm going to start studying. Bleh, studying. So maybe going to the hop istead of studying wasn't such a good idea. And where the face where all these people I heard that were there, but didn't see?!

I'm going to say it now, so you all know in advance: My reading week is booked solid. I'm probably not going to see anyone all weekend, with the exception of maybe going to see dracula. I have to learn german for a midterm, and copy out all the notes for the classes I missed while I was sick. So that means:

GER101 Stuff
• Copy out all the notes
• Memorize two chapters worth of keywords
• Do two chapters worth of assignments
• Study for Midterm
• Study for Reading Test

MATH136 Stuff
• Copy out all the notes
• Do the assignments
• Correct the midterm I failed

JAPAN112R Stuff
• Copy out the note I missed
• Do the assignments
• Study for reading tests

MATH137 Stuff
• Do the assignment

CS134 Stuff
• Do the project

So don't even think about bitching about not seeing me. I have to do all of that, plus hopefully work on the site a little bit. I'll put as much as an effort as I can, but I'm sick and cranky and don't want to deal with it right now. I'll probably just blacklist you for a week or something. There's your fair warning. I think it's fair warning, since so many people have gotten so whiney lately. It's ridiculous. For a while I was considering cutting off all human interaction, because all most people do is complain about little things that either: 1. don't matter, or 2. are easily fixed if they take the effort to fix it. So yes. Whine all you want. I'm going to go eat and then study for my midterm, so I can continue in life (because guess what, it goes on). And no, this isn't directed at you because I know you'll think it is. Especially after the talk.

Well, only sorta done. I like what it's becoming though. Notice the countdown is running again. New target date: June 1st 2005. Hopefully that's enough time to completely revamp the whole site [Note: That includes the subdomains. There's a shiny new one coming along]. Right now I have the blog done to the point where you can read it there [Note: click on up]. Theres even a nice little bar showing you how the progress is going. Sugoi desu, ne? I have a huge huge entry that I could post. I promise I will do it sometime this weekend. Right now I'm not coherent enough to make a decent entry. That and I'm suddenly really into doing the layout. So, until next time then!

I have one hour and twenty minutes until my midterm. I feel a little more prepared. I'm hungry. If JD doesn't come home by the time I finish writing this, I'm going to leave. I don't want to though. I'm not sure if I feel prepared for the exam. I do and I don't. I'm incredibly tired. I've been tired for the last month. There are a few points I'd like to touch on.

First: UW Feds election. Vote. If you're not going to vote, at least scratch the ballot. That way they know that you weren't satisfied with any of the candidates. I've heard what I need to hear from most of them. I know who I'm voting for. If you do plan on researching the candidates (which I know you won't because I have very little faith in you when it comes to this), don't expect anything amazing. Most (and by most I mean almost all) of the issues are identical. Fed Hall, and the current state of Feds are the big ones. Don't vote for the don because he's your don, or your friend's don. In fact, that's probably even more of a reason not to vote for him. Moving on.

Valentine's day. To most of you who bitch and moan about it: suck it up. Move on. There is probably only one hot asian girl who has any reason to be upset right now, and I don't even think it's Valentine's day that makes you upset. Let me present the following. To those of you who are single, shut the fuck up and let the people who aren't single enjoy it. Fun fact: This is my third Valentine's Day where I haven't been single, and I've never ever been bitter about it. So don't even try to pull that arguement on me.

For those of you who bitch about how it's a commercial holiday, fuck off. Christmas: Commercial; Easter: Commerical; Thanksgiving: Commercial; Halloween: Commerical; Decemberween: Super Happy Fun Times. Ok so I was off on the last one. What else? Canada Day, Independence Day (States - eew), Victoria Day (which most people only know as May 24: I dare you to try and remember what it's actually for). The list goes on. So shut up and sit down. JD's home, I'm going to go eat dinner and pass my exam. Boo ya.

I'm losing all my time. I woke up at 12:50ish. I've managed to get almost nothing accomplished. I'm still really tired. I don't like being like this at all. I think I'm going to make another doctors appointment. Well. Yes, that's enough about that. Today is a happy day. For all the right reasons; the kind that would make Miguel puke. [Note: don't lean back over your chair to stretch if you're tired, it will most likely lead to a dizzy feeling.] I haven't realy blogged for a week. You think I would have a lot to say. Let's see how it goes.

I've spent only every other night here. The rest of the nights have been spent at JDs. I didn't get to class at all this week, except for a tutorial (in which I was told we could leave early). I'm getting really annoyed with myself. I wish I wasn't so tired. Next week is going to have to get a lot better. I have so much I need to catch up on now. No more missing class. That's it. I've decided. I'm going to drag my sorry ass out there. Yech. Which means I'm going to have to start studying for math137 (the one I managed to fail). I found out I have a Japanese midterm next week too. I want midterms to be over. They're every monday for the next three weeks, plus the Japanese one on wednesday.

I'm going over things that I need to change. I'm going to try and keep my door open more often, since I have no real reason to close it unless I'm sleeping or napping. Apparently having two powerful computers in this tiny room isn't exactly the healthiest thing around. Thanks to Edward for that little tidbit. As well as for the help getting little things working (ie. my KVM switch, motherboard, powerbutton). So hopefully after studying, I'll have a chance to read my Red Hat Linux 9 book so I can figure out how to use this system. Silly interweb stuffs.

My iPod came. I celebrated by going out and buying CDs. I went into HMV to kill time while JD was going to his lab. I was walking around and I saw "Michael Jackson Number Ones" I cracked. I needed to buy it. $26.99, or 2 for $30. So I wandered the store looking for another CD to match that with. They didn't have Frou Frou. So I wandered for a while. Eventually I stumbled across "Eminem: Encore". I've enjoyed his two singles so far, so I didn't see a problem with it. Excpet for it was a 2 for $25, and not a 2 for $30. Kelly Clarkson was $14.99. She was out of the picture too. So I continued to wander the store to kill time, and find a CD to match with MJ. I was considering the new Simple Plan CD, but I don't really like them at all. Didn't really want to buy American Idiot either (plus I think it was 2 for $25). So I wandered a little more. That's when I came to the conclusion that since I couldn't find a 2 for $30 that I liked, I would just get the one that cost the most money, that I could deal with. That's when I saw it. "Madonna The Immaculate Collection" Yay Madonna! 2 for $30! Yay! Regular price: $27.99. Own the system! So I picked it up. To reward myself for doing so well, I decided to get Eminem and Kelly Clarkson. I paired Eminem with Jesse McCartney, and wound up spending $80 when I didn't plan on buying anything originally. I love the Jesse McCartney CD though. I've been listening to it since I got it.

Which reminds me of all the strange dreams I've been having this week. Extremely strange dreams. I blame my lack of coherency throughout the week. For example, last night I had a dream I was a performing singer. Like, megastar. Like Britney Spears level (ironically earlier in the week I had a dream I was on tour with Britney Spears). Last night I had a dream I was on tour with Jesse McCartney. However it was more of an American Idol thing (even though I've never seen one full episode, and I've only seen two half episodes). It was like a guest performance, because we weren't being judged. The interesting thing was that the complex looked remarkably like CIF with an expansion on the back corner by the paid and varisty change rooms. Then, on top of that, our "dressing rooms" were simply a big change room we shared. Boy did we share it.<

I named my babies, and they're alive now. Jackie Chan and Chris Tucker. I think that they're extremely clever names. Jackie Chan is my older one, running XP Professional. Chris Tucker is the new one on Red Hat 9. I finally got through all the problems I had with Chris. My motherboard fried. That was fun. So I'm done with the crappy "made by Asus for HP" motherboard. I bought another Asus one because I like it. Now I really just need to read this book and figure out why I don't have an internet connection. It should be fun.

I've come to the conclusion that I need to wrap this entry up. In conclusion: buy Jesse McCartney's CD. I'm happy with how my weeks gone, it's been the best week of my life. I'm going to read some Red Hat stuff and then study later since I'm still really tired. It's now 2:58. Longest typing period ever. I failed. Not at the quizes though!

This is an entry I was planning on writing on last Thursday but never got around to it. I'm going to call it "My Melface", simply because that's what it's about; My Melface (melishrelish). I love my Melface, and it makes me sad to how sad she is right now. I think it's funny, in a kind of twisted way. She's upset about how school isn't working out for her. On Thursday when I was walking to Health Services for yet another blood test (Or was it the tuesday before that?) I was thinking about Mel, and how I would give anything to have her drive for school. She's so dedicated to everything she does. I always felt so horrible when I worked with her.

For example, in grade 11 she put so much work into our Shinto presentation. There aren't even words to properly explain how excited she was about this. For good reason, we blew the competition away. Let me try and explain. Barone's (saradit) group was doing Buddhism. At the time Barone claimed to be practicing Buddhism. They got something like 81%, or 89%. We got 100%. Mr Campbell looked like a kid in a candy shop. We had stuff printed out on TypeWriter paper so it looked like rice paper. We were in costume. We had music. We performed our best rendition of a Shinto Rice Festival, and then after that we showed a video clip Josh(joshu_wa) made when he visited that gorgeous water shrine on his exchange. I had pictures from when I visited a forest shrine. We had sushi for everyone to eat. Literally, best presentation I've ever given. I don't think I will ever be able to top that (although the Japanese Final Project was tons of fun too). Mel and Kaitie (visualdarkness) literally are the reasons I love Japan at the level I do right now.

I had always thought Japan was cool. It was to be expected, I played video games. The summer between grade 10 and 11, at Mini U I was first introduced to Ayu. I hadn't made much of it, other than I loved her (the coordinators girlfriend, who was previously one of my councellors) was teaching in Japan, and had burned some stuff onto a CD. He played Evolution for us. I had no idea what it was, but man I loved it. I forgot to ask him what it was though, and she was out of my life for a month. I managed to remember to ask Mel and Kaitie one night when I was going to the movies. Thats when I was given the name: Ayumi Hamasaki. Well, you know how that turned out. Just wait until I can find more of her CDs. Eugene was the one who introduced me to BoA, who I also love dearly, but she's no Ayu. Ayu has a special place in my heart, and I owe it to Mel and Kaitie. That's not the only thing Mel's done for me.

Mel is the reason I play DDR. I had never played it before. It was her Christmas party that she had with her and Josh. Now just look at me. There are probably 10 or 15 songs that I can't play. Why? Simple: Mel got me hooked on it. Literally. Ashleigh and I played all the cheesy like 3 step basic songs at the christmas party. Same thing at new years. I finally managed to buy it over March Break. By that point, I was screwed. There was no turning back. I dove right into that. I had to. I needed to catch up to Josh and Barone. Boy did I catch up. That's what happens when your little asian girlyfriend gets you addicted to things.

It makes me sad that I can't help her. She was always super fun helping times. I tried my best on the CS culminating (which we all proceeded to fail anyways, because he didn't tell us he was going to throw gargage characters in. NullPointerException! NullPointerException!!), without getting us exploded for copying. I wish I had done more. Luckily Mel is a walking brain so she managed to stil lhave a higher average than me anyways, and blew all the UW people away. She got in. So now it makes me sad that she's going to leave. I think I'm going to have to do my best to help her. As soon as I stop failing my own midterms, I'm going to study her courses in my extra time so I can help her. She's worth it. I love you Melface <3.

( Name My Babies )

Right now, I'm taking a break from my CS134 assignment. I don't know how Fady and his partners have over 1000 lines of code. It's not completely ridiculous, but I don't know if mine will be that big. I'm trangling along nicely though. I just needed to take a break because my head is hurting. I've been all screwed up. For those of you who don't know, I have some sort of liver problem. It's been causing me to not sleep very much, or always sleep depending on the day. I've been extremely cranky because of it. Sigh. It's a horrible excuse, I know, but sometimes I just can't think properly. I haven't been to the gym in a few days. That also makes me cranky. I've been missing out. I think I'm just going to take this week off to catch up on things. I have a doctors appointment tomorrow to get an ultrasound. I'm going to ask for doctors notes. I need to show them to my german teacher, and perhaps my CS and Math teachers to ask about extensions on things. That would be nice. Extremely nice.

My weekend has been awesome. I don't think there are words to describe how awesome my weekend was. So I'll try and start from the top. Sometime near the end of January I sent messages out to people in waterloo asking them what they do here for fun. I got a reply from one boy on the 28th of January, that was really helpful. Then, on the 1st of February I got another message from him. Turns out he was like best friends with this guy I knew, whose name was Jon. Jon goes to York, and went to OT. So eventually he added me to MSN. We talked. On friday he invited me to go see a show he was in at Laurier. I figured, "why not?" and went. I'm so glad I did. So after running into him as I was going to leave, he had me stay and watch the rest of the shows. After that we went to The Symposium for dessert. It was a lot of fun. Much getting to know each other. Then we walked through Waterloo park. It was the first time in Waterloo that I actually had fun on a weekend. It didn't end there. Friday we stayed up until like 3:00AM singing cheesy songs to each other on MSN, in true mike fashion (spice girls, vengaboys, britney spears, christina aguilera).

Saturday he invited me out to go study with him. We never actually wound up studying. We were walking to Chapters on King, when I stopped at the all girls residence at Laurier to see if Lindsay and Angela were home. They weren't so I left a message for them. Then we spent an hour talking to a girl JD knew outside the residence. At the end of the conversation I had: groped her chest, made fun comments about sex, and passed her my email address as well as the link to the Russell Peters skit. JD invited me to go to a cast party for FR!NGE (the set of shows he was in), so we walked back to his place. We spent time sitting around and talking (and having fun with hot chocolate). It was then that we got cheesy and all that. So I'll spare you, and leave you with the fact that he asked me out. So now we're dating, and I'm happy. Extremely happy. We went to the cast party and I was floating. It was like I was on cloud nine. I spent the night at his place. Then we went out for breakfast Sunday morning when we woke up (at like 1:00).

After breakfast I had to leave. My mom and dad came to pick me up so they could drop off my new case. I'm excited for building my computer. After dinner with the parents, JD came over and we studied a bit. We also watched Russell Peters and Cowboy Bebop. It's amazing. I can't find the right words for all of this. So he spent the night. We ended up sleeping in on Monday, and missing class and stuff. We went for lunch at REV. It was good. Then he went home for his meeting, and I proceeded to fail my midterm. Awesome. So he made me an omlette to cheer me up, and I spent time in Laurier's Concourse copying out my notes trying to figure out what I had done wrong. I have no idea still. Oh well. I spent the night, and felt much better.

>So now I'm going to go back to coding my assignment. I was at health services twice today. Tomorrow is the ultrasound. At 9:00 there's a meeting for the health fitness something. I decided to help out. I'm also going to take part in the compost program. I figured I may as well attempt to get involved in this stupid school. Oh. Speaking of this stupid school. I'd like to take a small moment to give a quick "fuck you" to all the people running for positions on the Feds council, or whatever they're running for. I'd like to think it's a well deserved "fuck you" too. It's clear that not one of them cares about the first years. Who can blame them really? No one at this whole university likes us. In fact, most people here hate us. That was clear in the lack of effort and thought put into events for first years. Oh well. Also, I'd like to take this chance to say I might be able to get tickets to see Russell Peters. Suckers!

Wanting: The Monitor

My computer case arrived. I love it. My brother went and picked it up for me and had my parents bring it up with the KVM switch today. It matches my current computer case. Mmm, matching cases. I'm going to finally get to build that friggin PC. Probably on thursday, seeing as how: Monday - midterm; Tuesday - cs134 project; Wednesday - lots of class. So Thursday it is, along with doing the math137 assignment. Now all I need is to get a second monitor (matching the one I have right now). Why matching? Probably becasue I"m anal retentive.

I had the most awesome weekend ever. Best weekend since I got to this stupid school. I'm going to have to talk about it tomorrow though, because I'm friggin tired. TIRED! Ok, some studying must be accomplished tonight.

So I just had one of the most super awesome fun time nights ever. Like, it rocks my socks; both proverbial and regular type. I haven't had this much fun in Waterloo, well, ever. I went out with Jon's friend JD. He goes to Laurier, and he's in his second year there. It was so random that we met. I had messaged him online about fun things to do in Waterloo. Then I randomly got a message back saying: "YOU KNOW KUNG FUUUUUUU" about how I know Jon. It was fun. He was in a show in part of FR!NGE, a set of little shows at Laurier. So I walked over after the gym, and watched them. Oh man, they were amazing. I was really really impressed. I think he made the best first impression ever. Nothing says "HEY!" like running out on stage in your boxers, and one sock. It was funny. I was actually ready to leave after the intermission. I didn't want to try and go find him; I felt done. He caught me on the way out though, and we went back and watched the rest. It was amazing. I had a great time.

After that we went out for dessert. I think the place was called The Symposium. I don't remember, you all know how horrible my memory is. It was really really good though. It was nice to walk around Waterloo on the way there. I hadn't really done any exploring of Waterloo so it was nice. We sat and ate the yummy, huge desserts. Talked about Oakville, and all the strange people we both knew. Small small world. It was alot of fun. After we continued the random talking, and walked along the train tracks towards the universities. Through Waterloo Park. It was really really nice. I had an amazing time. It will give me something to deal with if the glow dance tomorrow sucks.

I'm sore. I'm not cranky at all, just tired. I was thinking about how I want my schedule to be in 2A. I think I want to stick with my two hour class blocks. Hopefully I'll be able to do that. I'm worried about days like monday and wednesday. Japanese is wednesday night (at 6:30), and Mandarin is on monday (at 2:30 I think). Both are 3 hours straight of class. I'm most likely going to be living off campus; I doubt I'll have a car. I'm not sure how'll I'll be getting to or from school. I also don't want to have 3 or 4 hours in between classes. If I had to spend that time on campus I'd kill myself.

I will never study in the library. I don't like the library at all. It's not the kind of environment I can study in. I prefer to study in my room where I have things to do while I take microbreaks. Little things like checking a webpage, or messaging someone on MSN. Little things to keep me sane. I definatly need those after some of my classes. I can't stand while people are trying to be funny while I'm trying to learn. If the professor is asking a question, don't give a joke answer that is almost completely unrelated because you think you're funny. It only annoys the professors, TAs, other students, and most importantly: me.

I took the Japanese quiz yesterday. It wasn't that bad. My problem is that I can never remember what a word means. This causes problems becuase if I don't remember the word, I won't be able to remember what particle to use. It also causes a large problem when I'm trying to translate sentences. The quiz was good though, I'm expecting mid to high 70s; not bad considering I lost my study time on tuesday night. I can't wait until I'm able to do whole entries in another language. It will be like a dream come true. It will be ridiculously fun when I can flip from language to language in my entries. I'll be like the BoA of blog writing, only I don't get paid or laid (BoA is an asian pop star from Korea, who sings in Korean, Japanese, English and Chinese [I'm not sure which one]).

I think I've given up on my iPod. We're onto the 13th business day, on two sets of 5-7 days to get here (5-7 to process, and 5-7 to ship). According to the people at Campus Tech, it was just shipped and is at customs today. Which means with my luck it will probably take another two weeks to get here. It makes makes me a little sad. Especially considering I've copied my CDs in, I've copied in the BoA songs that weren't on a CD, and all that's left is a few Ayu CDs. Sigh.

I have this little random tree I want to go on now. I call it a tree because there's a few branches to it. I'm worried though, because I might come off as being really hypocritical. Especially after mentioning the iPod. First and foremost, I have a problem with moderately attractive gay boys that probably work as hustlers who talk about the money they spend. Not like just they money that they've spent, but actually how much money they spend. It's like asking how much money a person's parents make. Ricci and I had this discussion the other night. Growing up I was quickly taught that it was taboo. Not in a sense that it's something horrible; it's just impolite. You don't do it. So when I see these little gay boys tlkaing about how much money they've spent going on a trip with some boy thay they're madly in love with (and have been dating for all of two weeks), it irks me. There's a number of possible (and likely) causes for this. First, I have a problem with the children in high school. I make a few exceptions (very rare) for people who don't have the mental capacity of a peanut. So, gay boy hustlers ... well, enough said. Second, I have a problem with peopel who talk about money in that context. Especially if they're always talking about money like that. To me, I see just see someone who's trying to impress people. Probably because of how lucky I was growing up (and I will not make any further comments on that). My third problem is with how big the ego is, spawned by a combination of my current feelings, the fact that they tend to think they're hot, and the fact that they have horrible style. Nevermind the fact that I thought he was like 16. He must make a great hustler. Now that I'm done on that branch, let's move on.

I don't want anymore of the fucking emails about how you're updating your address book. I don't care. Just like I deleted the emails from people about free SMS messages through some ad site riddled with spyware, I'm going to delete the emails about updating your address book at another probably ad and spyware riddled site. It does nothing but clutter up my mailbox, and I don't like it at all. So please, stop sending me those fucking things. No one really wants them anyways, they just can't get up the nerve to say it to you.

Things like this make me wish I was a full out bitch like Miguel. Miguel's a bitch. I can be a bitch too. There is a problem I see with this. Allow me to use Mean Girls to help demonstrate. Regina George was a bitch, and she knew it. Everyone knew it. Miguel is a bitch, and everyone knows it. I'm a bitch too. The problem is, like Cady, I can't actually handle being a bitch. I haven't achieved Miguel's level of nonchalance about it. This isn't some attempt to bend and twist until there are parallels between my life, and a movie. This is me saying it straight out. That one characteristic is something I have in common wiht the character. I'm going to need to work on it a lot.

I completely skipped on the gym tonight. I'm upset about it, but I'm in no condition to actually go. Especially after getting another blood test today. Then followed up by the nights activities. I'm in no mood to go. I'm actually getting ready to curl in bed and read up on XML. I need to plow through that book. Hahah. Plow.

I wish for once, I was able to remember all of the little things that I wanted to blog about when I'm blogging. So I'll start with what I can think of. I was at the gym (what else is new), and now I'm incredibly sore and tired. I'm not going to complain about either though because I'm hoping it will actually put me to sleep tonight. Last night I didn't fall asleep until some time around of after 3:00. I actually got out of bed, and went back on my computer. I'm not sure what it was. The most likely thing keeping me up was all the excitment about my iPod brewing inside of me. Last night I decided to start copying CDs into iTunes so that when I got my iPod, I could just go straight to the iPod and not have to copy anything. I'm done copying my CDs in. There are a few missing (t.A.T.u. and N'Sync) because I left them at home. I also need to copy in the downloaded BoA and Ayu MP3s.

I noticed iTunes is clever. You can choose what you want to encode as, but it defaults to something. Now since it defaulted to something I made the misake of assuming that you couldn't encode in MP3. When I was about halfway through all of my CDs I found out you can infact use MP3 incoding. Now there was no way I was going to go back and reencode all of those CDs. So Apple wins this round. Not that it matters, I'm sure the sound is better and I was going to us iTunes anyways.

Fady had his first interview today. I really need to get on reading my books. I have an interview on the 10th. I hace to finish reading XML at least. Actually, I think I might just drop it right now and go to ASP which would be more useful anyways. I also really need to get that linux box up and running. Maybe I'll have some free time this weekend. I'm so indecisive. I'm going to finish XML soon. It's not that hard to do. I'll put some time aside over the weekend. Then I'll start ASP. Mmm ASP seems like it will be fun. I'm actually looking forward to it.

Strangley enough, I've really been enjoying my cs134 lectures. I'm actually looking forward to the assignment to. I don't know why people think it will be so hard. I think it's going to be fun. It make me so incredibly happy to feel this way about a project. All last term I wished I could have Fady's dedication to his work. I think I'm getting it. Even if just for CS, it's good because that's my program. I was worried I wouldn't make it at the beginning. Not because I couldn't do it, but because I didn't care. Granted I didn't do the math136 assignment due tomorrow. Thats ok though, I'm going to make up for it by studying for the midterm alot and owning it.

Miguel (dmdc) like to make fun of the fact that my iPod STILL hasn't arrived yet. I'd smack him, but I love him too much. Silly kid. I'm going to cut this now. Once again I've failed to be interesting. I promise I'm working on that.

My computer just ate up my entry. That fucking sucks. I'm not sure what I was talking about. Right now, I'm copying CDs into iTunes. I'm excited. I have something like 97 CDs to go until I'm done with all the songs. Then I can continue to purchase more that I want, and steal some of my brothers to copy them into iTunes. Oh dear. It will be fun. I cant wait for my iPod to get here. I ordered it two weeks ago. I'm going to lose my mind soon. I can't handle this much waiting. I'm not a patient person by any means.

I was at the gym today and I realized something. Somewhere inbetween the tricep machine, and blowing up my biceps I realized that alot of hot people have really ugly profiles. It made me feel alot better. I hate my profile so very much. If I could, I would get it fixed. Seeing that in the gym made me feel better about myself. I'm not that upset with my profile. I think it's a combination of a bad profile, the fact that I'm not photogenic, and the fact that I'm overlycritical. More the first two, but still. I wonder how I'd be able to get something like that fixed.

I didn't study for Japanese today, or do my math136 assignment. I had to clean my room for my suite inspection. So instead, I will study tomorrow during my break. Then I will do my assignment after the gym. Wednesday definatly throws off my schedule of eating at 5:00 and going to the gym at 6:00. It's not nice to get out of class at 6:20. Mandarin is going to be a later class too next year. And on top of that, the Japanese classes next year START at 6:30. It makes me cry so much. But it will be all good when I speak Japanese and Mandarin. So I'll get over it, much like I do with most of the things I complain about.

I have to say, it made me sad that Miguel was upset today. I hardly ever see him angry. He's like some creepy rock that's not supposed to be emotional, and when he is you get all weirded out. So today I was weirded out (and touched) when he said I keep him sane on his LJ. It was nice. I'm so excited for going to the next hop with him. We're spending essentially the two days before hand getting all prettied up. So far plans include outings for shopping, hair cuts, facials, and manicures. I'm sure by the time we get to that date we'll have added more. Or we'll have cut back because we can't afford things. I think we're staying at one of his friends places and predrinking. It will be so much fun.

I seem to have run out of things to say. My head is sore. Stupid headache.