The Mike Haddad Show: This is relevant to my interests.

I'd been feeling very nostalgic. Somewhere there was a trigger that set off a chain reaction inside me. Memories flooded back. I couldn't help it.

The end of high school; the first time I got drunk. It was right near the end of grade 12. I was finally realising that dating girls because the only other gays guys in high school all sucked wasn't going to fly anymore. I was slowly cycling through a new group of friends from another high school as a result. My coworker, who was my in, had a party for her birthday. Everyone else was drinking. I drank, but my old friends didn't drink as much. So I got drunk. I mean really drunk. Like I didn't know my limit and drank Smirnoff Green Apple vodka out of a cup like it was a cooler, and then followed it up by doing Bacardi O shot's and chasing with Smirnoff Ice, because it was sweet. No one really knew better. Or they didn't tell me if they did. So I wound up wandering off to a park with an incredibly sweet straight guy who was the only person who thought someone should look after me. We went to Mac's and I was so drunk I ruined an entire display by accident, and followed it up by going to a park to vomit. A proud moment in my life.

Before I know it I'm only re-reading a story that defined what I really wanted out of my high school experience. I was almost bitter. Fairy tales are so cruel. I sat down, put on some slow songs from four or five or more years ago, with the occasional new one that I love and started re-reading. It's amazing what a good story can do. When I was getting too in touch with my emotions I would stop and watch jpop videos for songs I used to (and still) love on youtube. Youtube is an amazing gift from technology to us that I don't think we appreciate enough.

And I'm thinking about how every summer I promised myself it would be different. I wouldn't waste away. I would seize the moment this time. Grab life by the horns and what not. I had a stroke of luck too. Adam is moving into my building, 15 floors down. This summer is ripe for adventures. I'm going to try and remember to seize it this time.